Damnnnnnnnnnnnnnn good...dah brape lame aku pikir ni?timeframe nye 2 minggu jer and still i can't find any answer...susah sgt ker apa yg aku pikir ni?Sometime, rasa mcm dah ada jwpn...tp bila bgn pagi rasa mcm x betol jer decision tu..ish...
Rasanya org yg bg offer tu pun dah boring ngan aku...yela, susah nak bagi jawapan...aku bukannya aper, aku x suka uncertainty..(someone knows about it) dan aku dah malas dah nak berhijrah...dok sini lagi bagus..aku ingat nak dok sini dah sampai aku mati...dah byk sgt benda aku miss kat sini dulu...and hope that i wont happen again...
memang skang hard time for me...rasa mcm nak mati dah aku kat sini...aku rasa better aku wat ape yang aku rasa terbaik...aku malas dah nak risk kan idop aku...
aku dah x kisah ape org nak kate psl aku...aku tau aku sape, ape yang aku penah buat, aku x penah main2 dan bukan nak puaskan diri aku sendiri!!!
Rasanya aku nak biar jer offer tu pergi...sorry for that..bukannya xnak improvekan diri sendiri tapi better do it on my own so that there's nobody to blame...
so, lepas ni...aku akn buat something utk improvekan diri...maybe offer tu just nak ckp that i'm still capable to do it and everybody knows that i could cuma diri aku sendiri yg x yakin...dah mati dah keyakinan diri aku ni...after a year,still x nmpak pape improvement...so, gotta stand up again..pape yg berlaku lately mmg a drag me down sket, but i gotta be strong..klu ikot flow mcm masa aku jatuh tergolek aritu mmg smpi bila2 pun aku mcm ni...bgn tido tgh hari, keje berterabur...memberontak ngan buss partner laaa...ish3...bengong2...
the main reason aku balik sini adalah kerna 'dia'...so, bila dpt offer tu, aku rasa better aku tinggalkan tanahair ni kot,kat sini takde pape dah... tp bila pk balik, pape pon aku kena buat decision sebab aku...bkn sbb org lain...however thanks everyone for the advice..erm, i think my family and 'family' here really need me now..memang klu aku g sana, aku rasa aku leh jadi better than dulu...tp aku dah penat dah berkelana...so, maybe this is my decision-i will improve myself and then kukuhkan sykt aku...then bila dah berjaya, baru pikir psl kawen...a Quote from my friend "dont worry about girls, coz when u got the money, they will come to u...." erm...betol gak tu...
p/s : congrats to maizatu for the marriage dan juga bakal pengantin shikin...by the way, saya x terlambat pon,tp mmg x penah terpikir nak rapat pun ngan korang,haha... coz since last year sy masih pegang janji sy pd seseorang..tp skang ni x taulah...if sy nak ayat korang dah lama dah...have fun babes ;P
